It has been monthes since I decided to change . Here you can see the difference in me in just one year. I changed my hair style so many times. My weight vary from 55 to 68 then down again to 54. My character changes so many times from being friendly and hack care abt what people think abt me to being oversensitive and narcist.
I am devastated so many times.
-Rejection by jessy teo
-The rejection By miue
-Miue was sent back to thailand
-Friendship Breakdown with marcus.
-Was not selected to join program team in week zero.
-Rejection By siew ting.
-No one really remembers by 20th Birthday.
-Friendship break down with yeow hon and ada.
-2ND rejection by siew ting.
-Yunzhong ignores me for 2 monthes.
-Kevin ignore me for 2 monthes.
-rejection by eveline.
-Eveline Confesses to yunzhong in front of me.
-Yunzhong rejects eveline.
-Eveline leaves our social cycle forever.
-Fall in love to cassandra koh.
-Abandoning cassandra koh because I am afraid to fall in love again...
what more do u want my God? I am tired of changing my character again and again just to suit the environment around me. I am really tired. I believe I am a man without dignity now. I have been dropping my dignity infront of girls everytime I am rejected. and infront of my friends (yunzhong, kevin, marcus, etc) everytime friendship breakdown and I have to apologise be it or not I am in fault , cuz I need that friendship.. I need friend.. I am here living in singapore by myself, and since i could not love only friendship can replace the effection that I did not have from my family... but people mistakenly take it as I am being 'Gay' or 'desperate' or whatever shit they may think..
This is totally unfair to me... Really... It is..
Current FriendShip Status ... Fragility = high
Best Friends:
Kevin Chng
Kang Yunzhong
Close Friends:
Naiwang
Luqman Ang
Good Friends:
Zack
Shaoren
Wendy K
Nick
Raihana
Indrani
Adawiyah
Outside Social Cycle:
Mansur
YeowHon
Cassandra
Eveline
Muie
Elfi
SiNing
Weilun
Clement
Etc etc
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