Blind

I will just have to come into conclusion sooner or later, how far could I really travel in times of trouble.

I see it by myself , I am building this fortification too fast , much faster than what I can eventually handle.

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Blind

I will just have to come into conclusion sooner or later, how far could I really travel in times of trouble.

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Brotherhood dillema

iI could like for instance conquer other's physchology.. but never I am able to conquer my own phycology.. it is a sense of lost that I find as I am trying to search what I want in my life..

the one million dollar question now is.. do I enjoy drinking?

I spent $1100 on drinking outing (clubs, pubs, party) last month with four different cliques. but really, I dont feel worth it. now I feel wasted. am I really 'investing' those money or actually wasting it to the drain?

here is the mood metre rate after I hang out with each group.

burmese friends
hapiness : 60%
sense of brothethood : 50%
future investment ratings: 99%
average amont spent per outing:$ 100

marcus wong friends (if we bring any)
hapiness :80%
sense of brotherhood :80%
future investment ratings :90%
average amont spent per outing:$ 150

Roomate and friends
hapiness: 85%
sense of brotherhood :50%
futute investment ratings: 83%
average amont spent per outing:$ 180


luqman and friends
hapiness: 56%
sense of brotherhood :90%
future investment ratings: 55%
average amont spent per outing:$ 90 (but I need to belaja most of the time)

soon or later I will hv to decide which group I hv to consider just as close friends and which I hv to consider as real brothers. for the time being,I am just tired I want to rest
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brother..

four monthes ago I only have 2 groups of brothers. Burmese gang and Marcus wong. But now really, I have 4 groups of brothers, Luqman gang, burmese gang, marcus's gang , and roommate gang.. each ( except marcus) demands too much attention from me.. and jealous of me hanging out with the othet group.. man.. I am tired..

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Dunia

Di dunia ini tidak ada yang paling menyedihkan daripada membakar harapan sendiri yang dulu pernah dipupuk sampai dini.

Mhh

There no single moment in my life that my brain is killing me except this day. It keep bombarding me with Ideas, thoughts and despite I am linguistically less proficient in English I could at time in my ponder utter many unusually-spoken vocabulary.

God please save me.

The Chinese.

The Chinese has learnt to paint their life with black slash of ink and yet the manage to create a beautiful painting.

I have more colors than them and yet I have no Idea how to paint my life.