Rainbow comes after downpour

The main reason of why I am still able to stand on my two feet is simply because I believe, strongly with sufficient struggle and preserverence my dream will come thru .

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Dash of memory

You have no Idea how much I love you, how much your image lingers in mind. It is such a pain day by day just to wait for your answer. Every second counts. Like a needle which punctures my brain. Have a pity for me. Have a pity for a mere human like me.

Scrambled.

Manifestation of my own life... But rather I paint it by my own... I believe in you my God..

dawn

This may not be me. rather manisfestation of my own life.

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God spoke.

When the God tells you that you have accomplished a mission, He really means that you are actually not. You have just started a new mission in your journey.

a journey which by truth is created and shaped by your very own imagination and believe.

lost

I have indeed lost track of my own soul..

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Stand in-front of me

Honestly.. It is undeniable that I must find job as soon as possible.

I have also have to build a better plan for my future to come. There is just one thing that stand in-front of me. It is myself.

dawn

I want to die.. honestly.. right now I am at the other side of the wheel..

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Reinvention

Humans are indeed created to reinvent itself . Right start from it's creation.. I am reinventing myself in the most sophisticated way. This massage may be short but it carries a heavy comprehension. Deeper than any other post that I had every wrote in my blog.

shame

days have gone pretty unique in my life.. surrounded by my best buddies I feel that there are still a valid reason for me to carry on in my life..

god.. thank you for everything.. my life is kinda sucky now.. but I think I can still carry on.. hopefully..

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Friendship And BrotherHood

For a reason that I am unable to control this hatred that enraged my heart. I swear that I can take care myself without any of your intervention.

Life is 20% on what happen on you and 80% on how you react to it..

Grateful

I am now in the office thinking about things that I am not suppose to think.. Hell yeah.. I have work to do, but still I am blogging like forever !!

Days have gone pretty well for me Large number of friends suddenly appear in my Life... All of sudden.. It is rather ... Make me tired.. Alot.. But I am very grateful to the guy up there.. =)

deep hatered

There no simplicity in the continuity of life. Speak the truth and you shall understand how the world reacts upon us.

brotherhood is a word. a simple word. however it takes me years to understand it.

Break the chain.

Is there a way for us the break the chain that binds us tight an unforgiving chain we called "life".

For most of the time I ponder. My life is just an unforgiving continuation of pain and suffering.

Blind

I will just have to come into conclusion sooner or later, how far could I really travel in times of trouble.

I see it by myself , I am building this fortification too fast , much faster than what I can eventually handle.

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Blind

I will just have to come into conclusion sooner or later, how far could I really travel in times of trouble.

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Brotherhood dillema

iI could like for instance conquer other's physchology.. but never I am able to conquer my own phycology.. it is a sense of lost that I find as I am trying to search what I want in my life..

the one million dollar question now is.. do I enjoy drinking?

I spent $1100 on drinking outing (clubs, pubs, party) last month with four different cliques. but really, I dont feel worth it. now I feel wasted. am I really 'investing' those money or actually wasting it to the drain?

here is the mood metre rate after I hang out with each group.

burmese friends
hapiness : 60%
sense of brothethood : 50%
future investment ratings: 99%
average amont spent per outing:$ 100

marcus wong friends (if we bring any)
hapiness :80%
sense of brotherhood :80%
future investment ratings :90%
average amont spent per outing:$ 150

Roomate and friends
hapiness: 85%
sense of brotherhood :50%
futute investment ratings: 83%
average amont spent per outing:$ 180


luqman and friends
hapiness: 56%
sense of brotherhood :90%
future investment ratings: 55%
average amont spent per outing:$ 90 (but I need to belaja most of the time)

soon or later I will hv to decide which group I hv to consider just as close friends and which I hv to consider as real brothers. for the time being,I am just tired I want to rest
.

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brother..

four monthes ago I only have 2 groups of brothers. Burmese gang and Marcus wong. But now really, I have 4 groups of brothers, Luqman gang, burmese gang, marcus's gang , and roommate gang.. each ( except marcus) demands too much attention from me.. and jealous of me hanging out with the othet group.. man.. I am tired..

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Dunia

Di dunia ini tidak ada yang paling menyedihkan daripada membakar harapan sendiri yang dulu pernah dipupuk sampai dini.

Mhh

There no single moment in my life that my brain is killing me except this day. It keep bombarding me with Ideas, thoughts and despite I am linguistically less proficient in English I could at time in my ponder utter many unusually-spoken vocabulary.

God please save me.