I will just have to come into conclusion sooner or later, how far could I really travel in times of trouble.
I see it by myself , I am building this fortification too fast , much faster than what I can eventually handle.
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
Blind
I will just have to come into conclusion sooner or later, how far could I really travel in times of trouble.
Sunday, July 3, 2011
Brotherhood dillema
iI could like for instance conquer other's physchology.. but never I am able to conquer my own phycology.. it is a sense of lost that I find as I am trying to search what I want in my life..
the one million dollar question now is.. do I enjoy drinking?
I spent $1100 on drinking outing (clubs, pubs, party) last month with four different cliques. but really, I dont feel worth it. now I feel wasted. am I really 'investing' those money or actually wasting it to the drain?
here is the mood metre rate after I hang out with each group.
burmese friends
hapiness : 60%
sense of brothethood : 50%
future investment ratings: 99%
average amont spent per outing:$ 100
marcus wong friends (if we bring any)
hapiness :80%
sense of brotherhood :80%
future investment ratings :90%
average amont spent per outing:$ 150
Roomate and friends
hapiness: 85%
sense of brotherhood :50%
futute investment ratings: 83%
average amont spent per outing:$ 180
luqman and friends
hapiness: 56%
sense of brotherhood :90%
future investment ratings: 55%
average amont spent per outing:$ 90 (but I need to belaja most of the time)
soon or later I will hv to decide which group I hv to consider just as close friends and which I hv to consider as real brothers. for the time being,I am just tired I want to rest
.
the one million dollar question now is.. do I enjoy drinking?
I spent $1100 on drinking outing (clubs, pubs, party) last month with four different cliques. but really, I dont feel worth it. now I feel wasted. am I really 'investing' those money or actually wasting it to the drain?
here is the mood metre rate after I hang out with each group.
burmese friends
hapiness : 60%
sense of brothethood : 50%
future investment ratings: 99%
average amont spent per outing:$ 100
marcus wong friends (if we bring any)
hapiness :80%
sense of brotherhood :80%
future investment ratings :90%
average amont spent per outing:$ 150
Roomate and friends
hapiness: 85%
sense of brotherhood :50%
futute investment ratings: 83%
average amont spent per outing:$ 180
luqman and friends
hapiness: 56%
sense of brotherhood :90%
future investment ratings: 55%
average amont spent per outing:$ 90 (but I need to belaja most of the time)
soon or later I will hv to decide which group I hv to consider just as close friends and which I hv to consider as real brothers. for the time being,I am just tired I want to rest
.
brother..
four monthes ago I only have 2 groups of brothers. Burmese gang and Marcus wong. But now really, I have 4 groups of brothers, Luqman gang, burmese gang, marcus's gang , and roommate gang.. each ( except marcus) demands too much attention from me.. and jealous of me hanging out with the othet group.. man.. I am tired..
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